Demi Lovato is pretty open about her mental health, letting the world know she suffers from bipolar disease and helping others by offering mental health services during her tours. Recently, she divulged the pain she had in her youth during a candid conversation with Dr. Phil, revealing she started having suicidal thoughts at a very young age.

“The very first time that I was suicidal was when I was seven, and I had this fascination with death,” she said. “I have experienced things that I’ve not talked about, that I don’t know if I ever will talk about. But at seven, I knew that if I were to take my own life, that the pain would end. So, it’s been this thought where it came back when I was bullied. It came back several times when I was struggling with depression, my bipolar disorder.”

Those thoughts manifested themselves in cutting, and the pop star revealed that her mother “was afraid to wake me up in the mornings, because she didn’t know if she opened the door if I’d be alive or not, because every time I cut, it got deeper and deeper.”

The 25-year-old singer is now all about self-care and celebrated six years sober last week.

“When I went to rehab, my manager said you know, ‘You can either keep this private or you can share this with the world, and hopefully, someone can learn from your struggles,’ ” Lovato told People in September. “And when I heard that I thought, ‘I think it’s more important that people learn from my struggles than to keep it to myself.’ ”