Jennifer Lawrence Admits to Googling ‘Jennifer Lawrence Ugly’
Jennifer Lawrence may be a hugely successful, famous actress at this point in her very young life, but don't be fooled by her bravado: She suffers from the same insecurities as everyone else.
In an interview with the New York Times, Jennifer admits that while she feels more in control when it comes to certain aspects of her career now, she’s also more conscious of how she’s perceived by the public. She said, "I’m so scared to say anything now. I can see every negative way that people can take it, and I don’t want to sound like I’m complaining. 'Oh, she’s so conceited now. Oh, she’s so jaded now.' It probably comes from Googling myself. If it were up to me, I would not talk. I would just act.”
As a famous person, Googling your own name is akin to beating yourself with a tire iron or pouring lemon juice into an open wound. But that doesn't stop celebrities from doing it. Jennifer says she even went as far as to Google "Jennifer Lawrence Ugly" once, like a true masochist.
And while she recognizes that it’s pointless to worry about what other people think of her, she finds it impossible to avoid. She said, "I can’t think of a more wasteful use of my time than to worry about this. Why do I care what people think? But I do. I just can’t pretend I don’t care. I get really insecure about it. The world makes an opinion of you without ever meeting you. That worry should not bother me, but it does. It bothers me.”
A running theme throughout the piece is a constant worry about how Jennifer comes across. She gets defensive: “I’m really afraid that I sound like I’m complaining, which I’m totally not. I’m just explaining,” and wonders, “Do I sound bitchy?”
She also worries about her own career choices: "I can get movies fully greenlit, and hundreds of people are devoting years of their lives to something that may not be happening otherwise. Does that mean it’s good? I can’t be the only one with an opinion around here."
But being young and wealthy and famous isn't all bad — she's writing a movie with Amy Schumer, has more say in every aspect of her career, and her friends love her so much that they got Kris Jenner to surprise her with a cake and karaoke during her recent 25th birthday celebration. So, you know, the good outweighs the bad.
You can check out the full interview over at the New York Times.
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