Nicki Minaj decided to get personal with her latest album, ‘The Pinkprint.’ She made the conscious decision to drop the personas, the elaborate costumes and the pop-heavy sound, and focus on making a deeply revealing and emotional rap record, instead. In her latest interview for Rolling Stone’s January 2015 issue, of which she made the cover, she spoke candidly about the way she wants to be perceived, how she wants to inspire young women and even a few taboo subjects that most artists wouldn’t touch with a ten-foot pole.

According to Rolling Stone, Nicki referenced a surprise pregnancy that ultimately ended in abortion when she was still a teenager studying at LaGuardia High School in New York City. She said, “I thought I was going to die. I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through.”

She goes on to say that the decision to go through with the abortion “haunted [her] all [her] life,” but that she realizes it was the only option that was right for her at the time. She said, “It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child.”

You can check out the full interview when it hits newsstands on Jan. 2.

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