Liam Payne revealed just how much of a toll his time in One Direction had on him as a person. In a new podcast interview with Table Manners with Jessie Warehe goes into detail about his time in the iconic group.

The 26-year-old said that the breakup of the band in 2015, needed to happen for his own health. “[Disbanding was] really scary at first, but I needed to stop, definitely. It would have killed me. One hundred percent."

"There's no stop button. You've got no control over your life,” Payne said about his time in the group. “That's why I lost complete control of everything. We were definitely overworked... I had no personal life. I learned nothing about myself."

Payne then revealed that he tried therapy for his mental wellbeing. "I remember getting to therapy the one time and the guy was like, 'What do you like to do?' [I replied,] 'I don't know. I haven't got a clue,’” he recounted.

Payne said that the band’s remarkable success scared him, and he became a “recluse” because of it. “You have to realize what the possibilities are. I feel like I was a little bit in self-destruct mode because I knew it was going really well,” he continued. “Success is the bit that'll kill you, more than anything... You've got no control over your life. I lost complete control over everything.”

As for his relationship with the other members of the band, they’re still friendly to an extent. “I’ve got no bad bones with any of them. Everyone goes to work, you have people you associate with at work, but you don't see them outside of work,” he explained. “We don't really have a job together anymore. With someone like Harry, for example, I don't have very much in common with the boy. I can go have a drink with him. Fine, whatever. We just don't really have much in common."

Now that Payne has more control over his career and has a 2-year-old son and girlfriend, Maya Henry, he is the happiest he’s ever been. "It took a long time to get to this place and I'm glad that I'm at this stage of my life now,” he concluded.

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