Is one of your major fears in life the inability to clear your Google search history before you die? Well, you're not alone in searching for weird things -- Rihanna does it too.

During an illuminating interview with writer and director Miranda July for T: The New York Times Style MagazineRihanna spoke candidly about what she Googles in her spare time -- things like childbirth. Except, when Rihanna says she Googles childbirth, she really means the after-effects childbirth can have on a woman's body. She said, "Childbirth is putting it the not-gross way. I was searching the size of certain things, and how much they expand, and then what happens after...’’

In case you're unable to surmise what Rihanna is getting at in her frequent searches of "childbirth," she's worried about her vagina expanding and elongating to a point of no return: "Trust me, if they can’t feel the end, it’s like, 'Cannonball!’’

The "they" she is referring to, of course, is men. But despite this fear, Rihanna is unwilling to deal with men and their egos at the moment. She said, "Guys need attention. They need that nourishment, that little stroke of the ego that gets them by every now and then. I’ll give it to my family, I’ll give it to my work — but I will not give it to a man right now."

The entire interview is conducted in this way; it's surprisingly candid. July's camaraderie with Rihanna eventually falls past the nature of sex and dating, and leads them, also, to a conversation about race.

Again, Rihanna answered honestly and thoughtfully, saying, "You know, when I started to experience the difference — or even have my race be highlighted — it was mostly when I would do business deals...And, you know, that never ends, by the way. It’s still a thing. And it’s the thing that makes me want to prove people wrong. It almost excites me; I know what they’re expecting and I can’t wait to show them that I’m here to exceed those expectations."

She continued, maintaining that her main goal is to prove people wrong: "But I have to bear in mind that those people are judging you because you’re packaged a certain way — they’ve been programmed to think a black man in a hoodie means grab your purse a little tighter. For me, it comes down to smaller issues, scenarios in which people can assume something of me without knowing me, just by my packaging."

You can check out the full interview over at the New York Times.

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