Gwen Stefani recently opened up about the meaning behind her deeply emotional and poignant new single “Used to Love You,” and while she has yet to explicitly state that the song is about her ex-husband, Gavin Rossdale, she admits that recent life events have inspired her music.

During an interview with AMP Radio’s Mornings With Carson Daly, she said, “My life basically blew up in my face and so I’m in this new life and it’s pretty awesome, I have to say. Everything just feels new. I just feel inspired. I don’t know how else to describe it.”

But, she maintains, it was a struggle to reach that point: “I couldn’t write. It just wasn’t happening and I was so insecure about it and then it just opened up. This channel just opened up.”

Stefani continued, saying, "I don’t have anything to hide. Everybody knows that I was married forever and now I’m not. So, could you imagine what my life is like right now? It’s crazy! I ended up going into the studio. On the way to the studio, that first time, I didn’t want to go. I wanted to be in my bed, crying. And I did cry all the way down Santa Monica. ‘What am I doing? Why am I doing this?’”

But since her divorce from Rossdale, Stefani says she's written about 19 new songs in total.

The two shocked the entertainment world when they announced their impending divorce back in August, ending their marriage of 13 years.

They released a statement saying, "While the two of us have come to the mutual decision that we will no longer be partners in marriage, we remain partners in parenthood and are committed to jointly raising our three sons in a happy and healthy environment. To that end, we respectfully request privacy from the media during this time.”

Listen to the full interview above.

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